greenlife

I haven't been myself lately and been slacking off in everything I do. I have lost the vibe in giving attention to my  life. I have done things, I shouldn't be doing. I took risks because they said "life is a risk". I have waited for something that doesn't even exist because I always believe that "patience is a virtue". I have waited, yet it never happened. I have waited, and waited for more. I have waited but I can't deal the pain anymore. Now it's time to accept that things aren't exactly what they are. They may look so simple but it can be just a facade. Or worst than that, it can be a trap. The next thing you know, you are already shackled and can no longer escape.

Now all I want is a sweet escape.

I am making my own mess. I am making my own misery. And I need a fuckload of strength to move on. I can't wait forever. I am only human. I get tired and most of all I am also vulnerable to pain.

Whimsy. That's what I would call one of my rooms in my dream home's west wing. It would be filled with high shelves for my books, lots of plump couches, a narra (indigenous red wood) desk, and loads of whatever fun stuff I could think of filling it with. I've been thinking of including small taxidermy work in this list, but I find it too macabre (right, PETA?).

Here's a decorative creature which could be cute, functional AND animal friendly. It's what its creators at Chic Sin Design call a "Sleeping Grizzly Bear Bean Bag". This washable  bear measures 51 x 70 x 103 centimeters and can be used as a pillow, chair, foot stool, etc. It's a bit pricey though. You can get this from Etsy for $135.

Currently watching: "Orlando" (1992, directed by Sally Potter)